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Medication Assisted Treatment -Taking the Edge Off

Doctors overseeing medication-assisted treatment programs use prescription medication to help heroin and/or other opiate abusers break their physical dependencies.  Some of the prescribed medications available are Suboxone, Vivitrol, and Methadone. Medication-assisted therapy pairs prescription medications like these with behavioral therapy and counseling.  Many people are hesitant of medication-assisted treatment programs because they feel they are replacing one drug for another.

Medication Assisted Therapy

Health professionals use many other types of prescription medications to assist in withdrawal and recovery.   Drugs such as antidepressants, lithium, sleeping medications, and even medical marijuana are prescribed to ease the transition off of illegal substances.  Many users are finally able to receive a proper mental health diagnosis and a prescription for disorders like schizophrenia and bipolar disorder once they are clean.

Using a drug to treat heroin addiction does sound a bit counter-intuitive, so, on the surface, it is understandable that medication-assisted treatment is viewed as substituting one drug for another.  Some programs, like SMART Recovery, are very supportive of MAT and other programs that involve doctors prescribing medications.

My MAT Story

In my last year of law school, I had spent most of my savings on Percocets.  Low on funds, I had considered switching to heroin, which has a much lower street value.  Suboxone appealed to me because I did not have to miss any school to attend detox.  A Suboxone-certified doctor instructed me to stay clean for 48 hours (more or less) and then report to his office, three days in a row, to receive my Suboxone.  Within those three days, we determined my ideal Suboxone dose, which factored in my tolerance for opiates and pain threshold for withdrawal symptoms.  I stayed on the program, taking two pills a day for one year.  Unfortunately, I relapsed after a year and was taken off the program.

Pills on a scaleUltimately, this relapse was inevitable.  I had decided to start Suboxone for the wrong reasons.  If I am 100% honest with myself, I would not have quit if the money situation had not been so dire at the time.  Since then, I have witnessed Suboxone be a wonderful tool if the user is ready to recover.

A couple of years later, I was sent to an actual detox program for three days.  I was given a Suboxone taper to get the heroin out of my system.  After completing inpatient detox, I was prescribed Seroquel and Trazadone.  At low doses, Seroquel is prescribed for sleep; Trazadone for anxiety.  Most, if not all, long-term opiate users struggle relentlessly to sleep more than an hour at a time.  It is hard to relax your body and your mind never stops racing.  Seroquel allowed me to get at least 6 straight hours of sleep a night so I could stay focused on my recovery during the day.

Outpatient group therapy sessions, AA, NA and Smart Recovery meetings combined were not enough to keep my mood remotely even. Trazadone allowed me to maintain steady emotion so I could deal with tough issues confronted in recovery.  I credit most of my sanity in the first months off of heroin to these prescriptions.

During this period, I attended an Outpatient Recovery Program and lived in a sober living house.  Eventually, I was promoted to manage the sober living house.  As a result, I became familiar with the medical aspect of our client’s recovery programs.  For example, one client had a suboxone implant in her arm, which prevented her from having to take a pill every day.  Many people view popping a pill daily as addict behavior, so it is good to know they have innovated a way around this!

Overall, if the client was there to recover, medication-assisted treatment was not a hindrance.  In fact, I found it gave many clients an advantage.

Unfortunately, it is not realistic to live in a sober living house forever. (As much as I loved the girls, living in a house with that many women for long periods of time would be detrimental to anyone’s sobriety!)

After moving into my own place, I decided to start on the Methadone Program.  Currently, I take Methadone every.  Methadone has allowed me to stay clean, keep a job, pay my rent and be responsible.  I know I can taper off at any time, but for the first time in a long time, I can do things I love, like write this blog post! 🙂

I realize my story may not be enough to change traditional points of view on the subject:Substituting one drug for another

Many people still believe:

You will just be substituting one drug for another if you get on Methadone!

Outpatient, counseling, and meetings are enough for recovery!

You got yourself into this mess, so you need to deal with it! 

You are supposed to deal with your emotions by talking it out.

Am I right?

Thought so.

Well, I agree with you….to an extent, but I challenge you to the following thought exercise.

…In a Recovering Drug User’s Shoes

Instructions: As you read, imagine yourself in the situation.  How would you feel?  How intense would your emotions be?  Do not stop to think about coping with emotions as they arise.  Instead, feel each emotion pile onto the previous until you reach the end of the story. 

In a Drug User's Shoes

You walk into Dream Company Inc’s reception area.  You are there to interview for your dream job. You arrive early.  After all, you didn’t have to set an alarm to wake up this morning.

You check in with the receptionist, Anna, a beautifully thin blonde, ten years your junior.

You suck in your gut because the birth of your latest bundle of joy left your figure looking more pear than hourglass.  Anna says she will be right with you, without bothering to look up from her computer screen.

You find a seat in the upscale reception area on one of the benches outlining the walls.  It is obvious the interior designer was aiming for a hip, modern look, avoiding comfort at all costs.

You become hyper-aware. You lick your teeth to remove any lipstick transfer you may have missed. You picked earth tone eye shadows to compliment your new suit and tan skin and you perfectly shaped your brows.  You are especially proud of your near-professional highlight and contouring job; slimming your nose and raising your cheekbones.

Makeup is on point, but as soon as you sit, your eyelids start to sting.  The tingling becomes uncomfortable and the weight of your eyelids becomes too heavy to bear.  If you don’t do something, your eyes will water, and your makeup job will have been for nothing.  So, you blink…

Blink

blink blink…

blink…

“Ms. Applicant?”

blink blink…..

Blink

Louder now, “Ms. Applicant? Ms. Dream Applicant?”

Your attention snaps to the receptionist, now standing three feet in front of you.

“Ms. Dream Applicant, they are ready to see you now.  Come right this way.”Interview Room

Walking down the long hallway, you glimpse a mirrored wall in the room at the end of the hall.  In the reflection, around a conference table, sits 8 of the company’s top board members. Heads bowed, reviewing personal copies of the cover sheet and resume you sent over two weeks prior.

A million thoughts race through your mind, but reality warps.  The hallway turns into a funhouse, miles long, mirrors reflecting distorted images replace the office doors.

Interview Hallway

 You quickly account for how you ended feeling the way you do.

14 days ago: First phone interview complete.  You are confident it went well.

10 days ago: You loaded up on Vitamin C when you started to feel sick.

7 days ago: Admitted to the hospital for pneumonia. Treated with IV meds

5 days ago: Sent home with antibiotics.  Not able to sleep more than a couple of hours at a time due to an awful cough.

Last night:  While finishing up your presentation, you felt the burning pain of a yeast infection.  At this point, sleep was not possible.  You used these extra hours awake to prepare your presentation for the interview.

Six hours of sleep in four days was going to have to be enough.

Your heart rate rises, gravity seems stronger, and you focus on avoiding an epic trip over your perfectly matched heels. Too scatter-brained to have switched your phone to silent, it rings as you walk through the interview room door.  You look down at your phone and read:

From: Husband <3

  I want a divorce…

Okay, Ashley, what the hell does any of this have to do with recovery and medications???

Let me explain:

Each event listed on the left produces an emotional response similar to the event listed on the right.

The third column lists how the events are alike, resulting in similar emotional responses

Interview Event: Recovery Program Event: Emotional Response:
Biggest Interview of your life Getting clean and starting a recovery program Life-changing events with the potential to start a positive new life chapter
Preparing your makeup, judging your appearance Starting from scratch with old tattered clothes, negative self-esteem Comparing ourselves to others is natural, but, in situations like these, we are overly critical of ourselves
Admitted to hospital for pneumonia Entering detox for a few days Both physically exhausting and painful, leaving you feeling weaker than you ever have before
Yeast infection Post-acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS): After detox, the patient experiences PAWS symptoms that can be relentless for months More physically exhausting health issues, that just will not let up
Cough preventing sleep for more than 2 hours, seeing the funhouse illusion in the hallway Months of not being able to sleep after detox, becoming delusional Your mind starts to play tricks on you when you have not slept.  It becomes very hard to make good decisions and reasoning skills are severely affected.  Completely honest self-reflection is near impossible.
Text from the husband about divorce Issues dealt with in counseling or outpatient treatment Issues like divorce, rape, abuse, mental health disorders, making amends, and so on are enormously stressful for all of us.

So, truthfully, after feeling each emotion listed in the right column, how would you feel if you were Ms. Applicant?

Would you ace that interview?

No, NO ONE WOULD.

See what I mean? After examining the sheer number and weight of emotions experienced in recovery, it is a wonder ANYONE has done so successfully.  No wonder recovery rates are so low.

The average person would not succeed under the conditions laid out above

However, if a doctor is willing to responsibly prescribe medications to help with sleep, cravings, emotions, etc., real recovery work might be possible.  

A Closer Look

Medication Maintenance Prescriptions and Recovery

“You are just substituting one drug for another!”

Suboxone and methadone are opiates, so it is easy to classify them as substitutes for illegal opiate use.  However, with a little more research, it becomes clear that an opiate abuser does not get high taking Suboxone or Methadone.  The high after snorting Percocet or shooting heroin is in a different class completely.

I could say, trust me, I would know, but I’ll offer an analogy anyway:

Let’s say you are cutting onions when something startles you.  Your hand slips and you slice open your finger, blood gushing everywhere.  The high from Suboxone is equivalent to relief attained from bandaging the cut, avoiding infection and allowing natural healing.  The heroin high is equivalent to the relief attained from using your self-healing superpowers, immediately healing the wound and stopping all pain.

Most opiate users abused substances long enough to change our brain chemistry.  Like the bandage facilitates gradual healing of the skin, Suboxone allows for the gradual healing of the brain’s opiate receptors.  Like the bandage guards against infection, Suboxone guards against relapse by binding onto opiate receptors without producing a high.

Unlike heroin and pain pills, Suboxone can bind to opiate receptors and simultaneously allow them to heal.  Over time, our brain chemistry can work toward equilibrium while on Suboxone.

Trust me, if I wanted to substitute my heroin use for something, it would not be Suboxone.  Heroin users looking to substitute will settle for nothing less than a drug-producing an equivalent high.

Prescriptions for Underlying Psychological Conditions and Recovery

Many people abuse substances to self-medicate for serious underlying mental disorders. After detox, a healthcare professional is more capable of making a true diagnosis. Receiving a diagnosis is a relief. Suddenly, there is no reason to continue dangerously self-medicating. A schizophrenic will be prescribed a medication to quiet the voices instead of continuing to shoot meth.  A bipolar will finally get a lithium prescription, balancing his emotions, instead of shooting heroin to make the pain go away.

Taking the Edge Off

Lastly, and this will not be a popular point of view to some, but I promised honesty.

Sometimes, it is okay to just ‘take the edge off’.  Once you experience an opiate high repeatedly, there are not manyTaking the Edge Off things that sound appealing anymore.  Let’s support doctors who are responsibly writing prescriptions to ‘take the edge off.’

Medical Marijuana is a great example of a drug that can take the edge off.  Legal in most states, tremendous work has been done in using marijuana to treat pain disorders and PTSD. I am hoping to see an increase in the use of medical marijuana for opiate treatment.

Sometimes saying “at least it is not heroin” is okay.  Accepting that we need to let people in recovery take the edge off somehow, changes everything.  Once the edge is gone, the focus shifts 180 degrees.  Instead of feeling crappy and scheming for the next easiest way to get high, the focus is on getting better and forgiving ourselves.

Don’t forget to read the Warning Label!

Warning Label

It is no secret that many substance abusers received their first opiate from a doctor.  There are some shady, money-hungry doctors out there. Common sense needs to be used when prescriptions are used in recovery.

If Xanax is the drug of choice, a good doctor will not prescribe Xanax or other benzos, trusting the patient to take it as prescribed.   The same goes for any mind- or mood-altering drugs. A legit doctor will examine each situation on a case by case basis.

Ideally, a patient’s counselor, psychiatrist, and doctor form a recovery team to discuss the best path forward.  The more communication the more comfortable the patient becomes. If a patient is comfortable, he gains confidence in his ability to recover.  Confident patients are more likely to stick a program, stay out of jail, off the streets, and most importantly, OUT OF THE MORGUE.

Remember, no two people become dependent on drugs in the same exact manner.  Therefore, no two treatments will be alike.  We must conform treatment to the individual, not the individual to the treatment.

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42 comments on “Medication Assisted Treatment -Taking the Edge Off

  1. We tend to look at opiate addicts from outside and simply judge them based on what we see in appearance.We can simply stick them all kinds of stereotypical labels and we can easily accuse them having of negative human traits . But as we enter their world, we find that they are part of us and they actually want to be healing (love,attention,affection).

    Your intimate post and telling of your story is so instructive that could help viewers to have better and clearer attitude about this devastating phenomenon. I would love to congratulation on your improvement in getting recovery,Moreover being able to set out this helpful website which is a nice place to get inspired from.

    Thanks for sharing your story.I wish you much success!

    1. Shirian. I can not tell you how much your kind words mean to me. It is amazing how a stranger can put a smile on someone’s face like mine who, at times, feels very alienated from people who do not understand or just have never personally experienced the struggles accompanying substance abuse. Hearing words like yours keep me going with this site when I feel like giving up. Thanks again.

  2. This is a refreshingly open and honest article and I admire your candor deeply. Withdawl from any substance that your body has become reliant upon, is always going to be tough. Unless you have gone through it yourself it is not always easy to empathise or understand.

    As described, many of the symptons are physical and when you add that to the mental side, it is a double dose of horrible. Having a sympathetic GP is huge benefit as they will allow you to get the most effective treatment when you need it. This is not always the case though and having to battle against outdated views and stigma as well as a host of other symptons doesn’t make for an easy passage. With alcohol it became apparent that most doctors were reluctant to prescribe anything  until sobriety had been maintained for a period of time. This created a ‘Catch 22’ situation that again made life just that bit harder than it needed to be.

    If it was as easy as ‘Having a word with yourself’ and just making the decision to stop ‘using’ then there really wouldn’t be a problem but that’s not the case. Yes, you have to be in the right ‘mental’ place to want to come off opiates or other substances but that doesn’t detract form the fact that there will be physical and mental dependency factors in play. Having something to take the edge off will make the process more manageable and thus ensure a better commitment to whatever program is being used.

    1. Absolutely. the physical part is so overpowering in the early stages that even the strongest of my peers have succumbed to using again.  

      You bring up a very good point about GPs.  A methadone clinic, which usually has grants available or is covered by(or will help a user get enrolled in) state health insurance is usually a user’s best bet.  If they need inpatient, the clinic will give referrals.  

      Years ago, when I was trying to get on suboxone for an OXY addiction, I finally came clean to my doctor of five years.  (I had no idea, but doctors have to have a special certification to prescribe opiate withdrawal medication like suboxone.)  It took many rescheduled appointments for me to even work up the courage to come clean with my doctor so I was shocked when I thought I was walking away without the help I sought. 

      Thankfully, she was able to refer me to another doctor who she had trained with years prior.  God knows, had I left that office with a referral and instructions to set up an appointment on my own with some doctor I had never seen,  I would have used.  

      Instead, my GP called to get me in front of her doctor’s friend immediately. She literally canceled her afternoon appointments as I cried and puked in her office bathroom, just to help me. I drove straight to the suboxone doctor’s office when she got off the phone with him, walked in and was ushered to his back office immediately.  

      The whole experience was mortifying, but months later I would find myself visiting my GP with a card and a heartfelt thank you for saving my life.  

      Most doctors will not do this so it is risky to go to one’s GP unless you know he or she is certified to help.  The clinic should be the first stop for medication-assisted treatment.  

      Thanks for the comment and for taking the time to read this article!

  3. As heroin addiction is so widespread,and so dangerous,to the individual as well as causing big problems for their family,as well as all those around them,it’s great to see a recovering drug user,showing other addicts the way forward,to normal life.

    It is also interesting, for someone who has never been an addict,to see the inside story,and to see the steps laid out,to help those wanting to get cured, or to show the way, to those who are still addicts.

    I see the medication assisted treatment,can be seen as substituting one drug for another,but I also se the parallel with the doctor prescribing vitamin B injections, to help the alcoholic,get started on the road to sobriety.for some the way forward as indicated,with the recovering addict taking methadone is the way back to a normal life.

    The steps in the recovery programme, are very interesting,Firstly getting in touch with the right doctor,who deals with heroin addicts,then getting the correct medication for your particular situation,then going on a detox programme,going on to outpatient group therapy sessions,and then progressing to a sober living house,finally getting back into normal life in your own flat and getting a job,this is great,and a good plan to follow.

    Reading ” In a recovering drug user’s shoes” is a shocking picture, of how an addict struggles with,merely going through a job interview,and what prevents many addicts ,from getting back into a normal life,so we see the necessity for an addict, to get involved in the right programme.

    1. Thank you for your comment! I am happy this article can help non-drug users understand the struggle users experience while trapped in a using cycle.  You laid out the steps it takes to recovery very precisely.  However, I want people to keep in mind that no two recovery programs will ever look identical.  Each person has to take the path that is best for their own personal recovery.  

      Thank you so much for reading!

  4. Hi Ana. I must admit that the hardest drug that I have ever taken is Marijuana. I can’t possibly understand what someone goes through when they have been or are addicted to heroin. The processes you need to go through just to cope with the withdrawals seem bad enough, let alone the huge struggle to stay off the substance. But I can sympathize with you. Many years ago I was a young teller in a bank, I had not seen my school friends for many years , then one day an old friend came in the bank to my tellers box. I was absolutely overcome with joy to see this person, him an I had been very close at school. I asked him a number of questions about himself and then I asked how his twin sister was. He burst out in tears and left without me being about to stop him. Many years later I learned from another friend that she had died from a drug overdose at the age of twenty. I cried for many weeks after that, every time I thought about her and our childhood I cried. Even now I’m crying typing this. I will never judge anyone for having been or being on drugs. Jim

    1. Jim, I am so sorry to hear about your friend from childhood and for the pain you and her brother have experienced since her death.  I know that pain intimately as I have lost many friends from overdoses, many of whom I used drugs with.  

      On a side note: The scariest part about losing a fellow user is that, frequently, the loss makes a recovering user want to use again in an effort to numb the pain of said loss.  It’s a natural feeling, but you can imagine how frustrating this can be.  The cognitive dissonance is overpowering. We know using took the person away in the first place, but we want to use to feel better about it? It’s sick.   

      You are fortunate to have never been involved personally with hard drugs, but your story is very important.  DRUG USE touches EVERYONE at some point, whether you use drugs or not.  That is a fact and why we need to spread the word of recovery and, most importantly, make communication about using hard drugs less tabboo.  This will undoubtedly help people who are too afraid to admit to or speak up about their issues.  

      Again, sorry to hear about your friend.  Although I did not know her perosnally, I would bet she would want you to tell your story to as many people as possible in the hopes that others will start a dialogue about the pain using causes non-users as well.  

      Thank you Jim!

  5. Being an addict is really a great issue to combat, it gets to a particular time when they make up there mind no to abuse it again but there’s always this drive that initiates them to take the drugs again. This is a very educative post with lots of useful contents. I know of a couple of friends who are addicts and they’ve been trying but no result, I’ll share this article to them maybe it’ll help. I really enjoyed reading through.

    1. Thank you, Jones and I wish your friends the best of luck.  If they need any support or have any questions, please let them know I am always here to help.  Thanks!

  6. Very thought provoking and real,from someone who abviously has gone through it. I commend you and you should be proud of yourself! Medical Marijuana and I believe the use of nature is the better way to go. With the research and ongoing education into the benefits of cbd and our endocannibiod system I believe in treating the our body and mind systems not just the systems. I am a recovering alcoholic myself, my mother not as fortunate so I can relate to some of what you were experiencing. Yes if done right and for the right reasons medication assisted treatment can be beneficial but as you pointed out it has to be for the right reasons.

    1. Yes!! Marijuana maintenance programs are gaining popularity among the opiate recovery crowd.  It is another wonderful option.  Personally, I am not a fan of the way marijuana makes me feel so I opted for methadone, but this may change someday.  I will consider marijuana maintenance when it is time to taper off of my methadone program, but I will cross that bridge when it is time.  Thanks for a great comment with useful advice for our readers!

  7. Hey. Am inspired by how brave you are to share with us your story. I can relate with you. I was addicted to alcohol and I never liked it. I was broke staying at  a friend’s house so I felt useless and resorted to drinking because when i got drank, I didn’t remember anything. But, sorrow drowned in anyways after getting up from bed. If there was a way I could find something stronger, I would but my country is so strict so high alcohol content whiskeys is all I took. Then, I decided to get sleeping pills. They nearly killed me. There is a time i didn’t eat for 4 days. I decided to just stop, I saw a community doctor who I saw every evening. Then things started to change. Am now very fine. It was all because of that one man.

    When you share this information, I simply wish that addicts could see it and take action for their well being. Thank you.

    1. Happy to hear you are doing better now.  If you don’t mind me asking, what country are you in? I am wondering what you think about your country being strict on drugs.  Do you think this makes it harder to get drugs, are there fewer drugs available, or is there just a thriving black market for drugs? I am curious about how other countries are handling drug abuse.  Anyway, thank you for reading and for sharing your story!

  8. I loved it! I like how you’re calling out 12 step programs lol. this really helped me in understanding what opiate addiction is like. I once tried writing a story abt a character who starts using heroin, and someone commented “that’s not why ppl do heroin” lol.

    1. It is a very hard thing to understand if you have never struggled with using heroin. Glad we could explain it in a way that helps others understand. Thanks for reading!

  9. Hi, 

    I was looking for some information on medication-assisted treatment and found your helpful article. Thanks a lot for sharing your story, and this has to be motivating for many others.

    The information you shared on the Recovering Drug User’s Shoes topic is insightful, and I was able to realize the pain and difficulties. Your analogies are thought-provoking.

    Indeed, Medical Marijuana is awesome and some of my close friends benefited from it and it changed their lives.

    Great information, you have really given a lot of value here and I really enjoyed the content and in the manner that you presented. This article is exceptionally rich in information, so I believe one read is not enough and I am bookmarking your article.

    1. Paul- Thank you so much for such high praise!  We truly believe that sharing our stories, honestly, is the only way to help others who may be struggling.  It is so important to remember that everyone’s truth is slightly different and each truth deserves to be listened to when the user is ready to share.  Thank you for reading and hope you enjoy the rest of the site!

  10. This is a really wonderful post. I have been in contact with quite some dew addicts and I must say they sometimes don’t really enjoy doing it but can’t really  figure out what pushes them to it. Some time around last year I was approached by a young man who was a heroin addict and when we spoke he said it was out of his control and he doesn’t know how to stop going back to it. I have him some suggestions on how to stop which is following at the moment, although he isn’t completely clean yet but he is much better than he use to. I’ll love to show him this post so he can benefit from it and see that he can be completely clean. Thanks for sharing 

  11. I’m so very sorry that you’ve had to go through this.  However, I am proud of you and commend you on finding the help you needed to overcome your addiction.  Bravo to you!  Many people are unable to get to the point you’ve reached.  I was completely intrigued by your post and have never looked at addiction from the shoes in which you described it here.  Thank you for allowing your readers into this very personal part of your life.  If only one person benefits from your experiences and advice, then it is all worth it.  Keep it up!  Best of luck to you as you continue down the path of sobriety!  Blessings!

    1. Thank you and thank you for taking the time to read my story.  Our lives are so busy these days but it is important to remember there are many out there struggling.  Sometimes taking the time to empathize with those who are struggling opens our eyes, telling us to slow down, and lend a hand to those we love!  Thanks again for reading and for commenting!

  12. Oh my, the way you have written this, you have let a non addict like the understand how all this feels. I used to think that the substitution on drugs for another is just another way of taking the substance. I didn’t know that it was an effective way of getting recovery. One thing I can totally agree with is that the recovery can only take place when a person is ready for that recovery. I’m glad you could share your story here. This I am going to share, who knows who I’d be helping out there. Best regards!

    1. Henderson- Thank you so much for reading and for your comment.  Unfortunately, too many people believe the stigma placed around MAT programs.  Although some abuse these programs, many of us use them to recover and can credit them to saving our lives.  Thank you so much for taking the time to listen to another point of view and for sharing.  It means the world to us!

  13. This is a very troubling post and at some pints in the reading, I felt this was talking to me and the reason I needs to quit smoking which I have gotten addicted to. Seeking medical help in all these kinds of situations is very germane and I have tried doingbit almost four times but I have never succeeded with it at all due to my unwillingness to go through the challenging period of body demands. Seeing you comingbout of this with the help of MAT is great and I am feeling somewhat challenged to give it a try to. Your story is inspiring  and really giving me second thoughts

    1. I am sorry to hear about your struggle with smoking. How to get off drugs- The Power of Imagination may help you in your battle to quit nicotine.  Sometimes when we try to quit cold turkey or our own we get stuck, almost like bashing ones head against the wall over and over again, hoping the next time we won’t get a headache.  This is the definition of insanity.  A new approach is required in these situations.  Than you so much for reading!

  14. What a heartfelt and honest article. I’ve not read such an open account of what it’s like to be an addict in recovery before. You are truly brave for putting yourself through that, and for sharing your experiences with the world in this way. Your story is inspirational and I wish you all the best for your continuing recovery.

  15. I have heard a lot about coming off the addiction and how strenuous and tasking it is but I never for once thought it could be this much disturbing. Thanks for summoning the courage to share this with is all. Firstly, though I have an uncle who passed away fas a result of being a heroine addict and the addiction killed him some times last year bit seeing you were able to oulll through it all through medical help, that’s nice and encouraging. This is a story worth sharing. Thanks

    1. I am so sorry to hear about your uncle.  With all the Purdue opioid lawsuits being settled, hopefully, we can figure out a way to stop addiction before it plants a seed in our youngsters.  But, we must not forget those who are still struggling and those we have lost, like your uncle.  There are stories and lessons to be learned in these truths.  Thanks for stopping by!

  16. This is a great website!  Having “been there and done that,” I know everything you say to be the gospel truth.  I did 12 years as a result of my addiction, went into over a dozen treatment centers (mostly for R&R), and tried to kill myself a couple of times.  Thank you for your sincere, honest, transparent approach to a subject replete with pundits that don’t have a clue.  I’m working on a cookbook with prison recipes and stories of redemption.  Congratulations on your recovery, and your writing to stay clean is a great example of the adage: “We keep what we have by giving it away.”

    1. Cedric! So glad you had a chance to visit the site.  I am happy your story is one of success and triumph, however, I bet you did not need 12 years in prison to turn your life around.  It seems such a waste and not helpful to help those with substance abuse issues.  I just wrote an article on the subject: How to Help an Addict: “You did this to yourself!” Check it out if you have a minute.

      Also, funny you should say you are writing a cookbook.  You may find this post interesting: Prison Food Recipes-Eating Salad with a Spoon.  I am in the process of writing a book with a cookbook of the same variety included.  I will message you personally.  Maybe we will have an opportunity to team up on something!  Great to connect and thanks for stopping by!

  17. Thank you for sharing your ideas about recovery from alcoholism and addiction. I’m glad you found something that has work for you. There are a lot of different ways to go about recovery that can work more or less depending on the person. All anyone can do is give things a try one by one until something seems to click. Maybe for some people it will be a mix of things. For some people you know meetings or therapy or medications would help. Alcohol can be especially physically addictive and there’s all that delirium tremens that people can get and all that stuff.

    it seems like you care about helping people recover from addiction and alcoholism so that is very good. Thank you for making this information available for when people look for it so that they will know what their options are.